Karmic Astrology: NN/Aquarius/House IX

I purposefully ignored any information about the nodes or outer planets when I dove into natal chart astrology earlier this year. I even charged two weeks of HGA prayers dedicated to better understanding birth charts, but that's another post I'd like to make so never mind about that. The inner planets were enough of a challenge for me to begin with: I learned how each sphere is a building block that contributes towards your whole personality, and how the signs and houses alter their lens. Planetary correspondences and hours were all I considered during this time. I understood that the outer planets held sway over aspects of myself that're shared with the zeitgeist of the nation. They just didn't feel personal for me and therefore I had no use for them. Silly rabbit. 

As I obtain a firmer grip on the North/South Nodes, though, I'm learning they dictate "your soul's worldly mission or purpose". This is typically what most people study their birth charts for, and so I was surprised I knew and heard so little about them. I'm sorry to say I've long held the attitude that I'd prefer someone to tell me what my purpose was. I blame all the Air in my chart and my Mars/Gemini placement but I really had ought to just own it and say I'm lazy and have real issues 'getting the ball rolling'. Its one of the aspects of myself I've tried to address using magick.

I practiced devotional and ceremonial magick to earn the Sun's good graces, thinking that its afflicted placement and squared Saturn aspect was "muting" me. "Ye who holds the reins of the six, the noble planets, so that they let themselves be guided by you" tells me the Sun, as a healer, would remove any qualities that aren't befitting me and set me up for better correspondence with the other planets. Towards the end of my solar devotional marathon I developed terrible acid reflux and weird hives along my hands, side and stomach. (The hives looked like a heat rash but was more likely an allergic reaction to dog hair? Hard to say). While there's a level of cognitive bias here I'm going to say the solar spirits aren't hot to trot working with me. 

Refocusing my petitions to satisfy my North Node placement may be more productive. It likely doesn't involve disturbing spirits of a malefic planet. My North Node rests in House IX in Aquarius, which is probably a gifted and exciting placement if it wasn't so vague and frustrating to conceptualize. I'm charged with the duty of becoming some sort of humanitarian to counter the karma from my South Node Leo placement. Apparently I was a rude, uncaring regal man in a prior life and I need to learn to set aside an ego to become part of a fight for community. 

Astro-Seek says the following:

North Node in Aquarius brings the conflict between the self-centered egocentric showing off, and being aware that they belong to a group. The conflict between platonic love and passionate sensual erotic experience. These people need to learn to look at life from different perspectives and not just think of satisfying the needs of their own ego. They should develop the spirit of the community, promote new ideas and reforms, and spread awareness that we are all citizens of the world. 

North Node in House IX brings the conflict between noble thoughts and simple trivial pearls of wisdom, between worldly knowledge and sacred values, and between intellectual doubts and religious beliefs. These people need to get a real education and find real meaning of various ideas. They need to attain personal spiritual image of the world through long journeys, studying, and spiritual pilgrimages. They need to develop confidence in their opinions and move from simple truths to higher knowledge and ethical values.

 

I read this, and I think about my Sun/Venus/Mercury in House V and what I can do to make this placement work for me. There is a lot of talk about humbling yourself but I truthfully don't understand how to work on this, since I am not one to hog the spotlight or talk over others. Something is telling me I'll either need to go back to school, teach somebody something myself, or engage in community service of some kind. Aquarius is ruled by Saturn who likes to see you doing acts of charity, and my Ascendant Gemini gifts me with the gab to express ideas to others. Maybe its time I hit the books? There's more for me to learn, that much I know, but I'm thinking things may not be so conventional.